For right now? Just Google (search) for your local crisis centre and phone somebody. Or go to ER -- but where they will make you wait for hoooooouuuuurrrrrs (the fuckers!) I will be SO glad when those bastids recognize that being on the verge of suicide is the same thing as being on the verge of murder (dumb fucks).

Here's a number: http://www.crisisline.ca/

Best place to me, though, is the ER. You will be able to look around and watch people and maybe try to see what their lives are like and that maybe yours doesn't suck quite as much as you thought it did. A friend and I were talking about "life is always worse for somebody else" (said in a deep, serious voice, right?).  And then we got to wondering who the absolute worst person on Planet Earth would be and what would be their ... like their PROBLEM, eh?

But I also recognize that there is some really shitty stuff happening to peeps out there so I am not negating what you are going through. Some stuff is pretty much unbearable. I am lucky to have been only "touched" by just about everything. But this gives me an understanding of almost everything, too.

If Daddy is doing bad things to you, there's a way out. If Mommy is doing bad things to you, there's a way out. There's always a way out if you know who to unburden those horrible Family Secrets to. I will do my utmost to help you find the right person to talk to.

And don't forget about that li'l ol' chemical imbalance I mentioned on the home page, eh?

And don't forget my blog (Christina's Blog). Lots of tidbits there for fighting this thing.

Where to go for help.  Please.  Do it?